this is me!

Love is the most sacred word of all time. They said love conquers all. Love is a word that is really hard to give the meaning but if you use the dictionary, it will provide you the meaning. Love is about personal story. Love is happy and sometimes love make us sad. Some said that love is just a game that if you win... you can conquer everything but if you lose...it makes your life miserable. Things like this happens.... so when it happens, you must be prepared because if not you'll find yourself alone in the dark.

Most of the people out there are looking for love and sad to say...I'm one of them. It's really hard to look for the true and one love. I've been to a relationship that lasted for 10 years and expecting that it would last forever but sad to say it didn't. Forever is only for fairytale. Relationships are among of the most complex aspects of our lives ,it can elevate you to new heights or drag you down into the dumps and this is what happen to me.

A relationship for me requires the effort and commitment of both partners. One person can't carry it alone. Even though you might come through with a miraculous save such attempts are usually doomed to failure, and even they succeed, they may take such a tremendous toll that you ultimately feel they weren’t worth the effort. You could be much happier in a new relationship (or living alone) instead of investing so much time trying to save a relationship that’s dragging you down. You’ll do a lot more good giving yourself to someone who’s more receptive to what you have to offer and who genuinely appreciates you for it. If you’re spending your relationship fighting resistance more than sharing love, you’re probably better off letting it go and embracing a relationship that will provide greater mutual rewards for less work.

All of us experience love, hatred , gladness, loneliness, sadness, heartache and happiness in life. Sometimes I think of not having a relationship anymore because I'm scared of another failed relationship but I want to be happy and love makes my heart happy and fulfilling that's why i still want to be into a relationship. The question is.... will I find Mr. Right that will love me for who I am? A man that will accept my evil. A man that will pull me up when I'm down. A man that embrace the whole me. A man that will love me.....

So many things I want. So many question that bothers me. So many hopes and longing that someday I see myself Happy and Contended. Will this hopes remain as hopes or someday, somehow, somewhere out there....there's really someone for me.